Oh. Wow, i always wanted to start a post with “oh”.
And now for real.
Last year wasn’t a good reading year for me, i talked about it on my post 2017’s resolution? and i decided this year i will be reading only stuff i want to read, and i’ll give each book i read the time it needs, i won’t be rushing or cutting my sleeping time or forcing myself to read when i’m not feeling like reading.
These three weeks have gone great this far unless you count the book i’m trying to read right now. History is all you left me by Adam Silvera is the book i’m currently reading. Or trying to read.
You see, it’s not that i’m not liking what i’m reading, on the contrary, even if i cannot bring myself to finish it this year it will still be in my top 5 reading of 2017. Yes, i totally mean it.
History is all you left me is a story about loss, love, grief and so much more. I started reading it on a weekend because i knew it would break me to pieces and i won’t be able to function on the week if i was reading it. Still, i’m too broken right now to function anyway.
This book is… so much, i’ve been crying for the very beginning and it makes me cry each time i pick up the book. So far i’m almost half way through it and dehydrated for sure because of all the tears.
I’m normally a very sensitive person and cry a lot because of books but never happened to me that i started crying at the beginning.
It’s really funny because i heard before about the great job Adam Silvera did on More happy than not, but i heard also it was dramatic and i said to myself i wasn’t prepared for something like that for the moment i put the book on my tbr in 2015. Yes, i haven’t read it yet, it’s waiting in my kindle, though. And then for some reason i though i could start reading his books by starting with History is all you left me? Like, am i an idiot?
I mean it, just read the synopsis:
When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.
To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.
If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.
I truly don’t know what was i thinking when i decided to start with this book. My soul is crushed and i don’t know when ill be able to finish reading the book. Still, i’ll do my best to finish it because the pain is so real, i just love the book.
Obviously, if i finish (more like, when i finish) reading the book i’ll make a full review.
Now i just need to breathe deeply and go try read something happier… any recommendations?
Have a bright day!