Even If We Break by Marieke Nijkamp

Even If We Break

Even if We Break by Marieke Nijkamp

Genre: Young Adult,
Pages: 336
Publisher: Sourcebooks Fire
Rating: 3 stars

Summary: From #1 New York Times bestselling author Marieke Nijkamp comes a shocking new thriller about a group of friends tied together by a game and the deadly weekend that tears them apart.

FIVE friends go to a cabin.
FOUR of them are hiding secrets.
THREE years of history bind them.
TWO are doomed from the start.
ONE person wants to end this.

Are you ready to play?

My review:

Five roleplayer friends about to go their separated ways because of lies and tragedy decide to make the last weekend together a moment to remember but as they start playing in an isolated cabin in the mountains things start to go south, and all hell break lose. Who is the one trying to kill them all? Will they survive?

I really wanted to read this book since it came out but i’ve been waiting for October to do so. I actually thought it would be more scary.

The book has five different voices, as each one of the characters have their own chapters.

At first i did enjoy them, i really liked the characters and the fact that there was a lot of representation, there was a trans boy, a non binary character and a not neurotypical one. I read some reviews were people complained about the fact that there were two no cis characters but to me it made sense since they were the only ones in their school, and from personal experience, lgbtq+ people do find each other and grow closer together because they have things in common other people don’t. So i did like this little fact about the book.

The story is pretty straight forward, the friends find one of theirs is missing and everything start going to hell. The thing is, for me at least, the first half of the book was so much better than the second half. In the first half i really felt like i couldn’t put the book down. I just needed to know what was going on, but in the second half of the book two of the characters were out and i felt the stroy being told a little forced.

The main problem i got with the book was there were too many povs and they felt the same, at times i lost track of which character was the one talking because they all sounded the same, they had no different ways of talking between each other.

As for the resolution of the story, i didn’t like it. I don’t find the reason for what happened actually a good one, which surprised me because other books i read by the same author i really could get behind the why of what as happening. I just feel like the reason and the ending itself was a total miss.

So, i don’t know, i’m not sure if i would recommend this book to others, since i wasn’t that okay with the ending. I think the author should’ve found a better reason for the events, though maybe it could have changed the book too much. I was expecting something more spectacular or even paranormal… so i don’t know. I’m a bit dissapointed on the book.

But don’t get me wrong the first half is great.

Overall, i give this book 3 stars and nothing more.

Have you read the book? If so, did you enjoy it? If you didn’t do you think you’d give it a chance? Let me know in the comments below!

We Are Okay by Nina LaCour

We Are OkayWe Are Okay by Nina LaCour

Genre: YA, GLBT.
Pages: 240
Publisher: Dutton Books for Young Readers
Rating: 4.25 stars

Synopsis: You go through life thinking there’s so much you need…

Until you leave with only your phone, your wallet, and a picture of your mother.

Marin hasn’t spoken to anyone from her old life since the day she left everything behind. No one knows the truth about those final weeks. Not even her best friend, Mabel. But even thousands of miles away from the California coast, at college in New York, Marin still feels the pull of the life and tragedy she’s tried to outrun. Now, months later, alone in an emptied dorm for winter break, Marin waits. Mabel is coming to visit, and Marin will be forced to face everything that’s been left unsaid and finally confront the loneliness that has made a home in her heart.

My opinion on the book:

I jumped into the book without knowing anything about it or the writer, i just wanted to immerse myself as much as possible in the book without a previous idea of what could it be about.

It was a great idea. I stumbled upon a very interesting story with lovable character and amazing writing.

The book is a bitter-sweet tale about how life changes not only because of stuff we are expecting to happen (like leaving for college) but also because life is so much bigger than what we think and see of it.

I adored the story. The main character, Marin, was an incredibly sweet character and narrator. I could feel the pain she was feeling through her words. I think the author made a great job creating the voice of the narrator.

There aren’t many characters in the book, and not all of them are fully developed (obviously), but the most important one are three-dimensional and come to life in the best way possible.

I enjoyed a lot the writing style of the author. It was soft and poetic and it suited the narrator very much. This was the first book i read by Nina LaCour, but i believe i’ll be reading more of her books because it was absolutely fantastic (so if you have one that you think i should start with, please tell me).

The book made me really melancholic and i went through a lot of emotions while reading it, i laughed and cried, smiled and felt really sad.

It was an extremely enjoyable reading and the emotions it made me feel were very real.

I would like to recommend this book to pretty much everyone, especially to those looking for a heart-warming, bitter-sweet story about friendship, loss, love & family.

We Are The Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson | Review

We Are the Ants We Are The Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson

Genre: YA, GLBT, Science Fiction
Pages: 455
Publisher: Simon Pulse
Rating: 5 stars

Synopsis: There are a few things Henry Denton knows, and a few things he doesn’t.

Henry knows that his mom is struggling to keep the family together, and coping by chain-smoking cigarettes. He knows that his older brother is a college dropout with a pregnant girlfriend. He knows that he is slowly losing his grandmother to Alzheimer’s. And he knows that his boyfriend committed suicide last year.

What Henry doesn’t know is why the aliens chose to abduct him when he was thirteen, and he doesn’t know why they continue to steal him from his bed and take him aboard their ship. He doesn’t know why the world is going to end or why the aliens have offered him the opportunity to avert the impending disaster by pressing a big red button.

But they have. And they’ve only given him 144 days to make up his mind.

The question is whether Henry thinks the world is worth saving. That is, until he meets Diego Vega, an artist with a secret past who forces Henry to question his beliefs, his place in the universe, and whether any of it really matters. But before Henry can save the world, he’s got to figure out how to save himself, and the aliens haven’t given him a button for that.

(taken from goodreads.com)

My thoughts on the book:

Henry may seem like a regular teenager but he has been abducted by aliens since he was 13. Now, the aliens had told him the world is about to end and he is the one to decide if this world is worth saving or not.

This decision isn’t an easy one for Henry as much as his life hadn’t been; last year Henry’s boyfriend, Jesse, committed suicide, at school, everyone calls him “space boy”, his grandmother suffers from Alzheimer’s and his home’s life isn’t perfect either.  Henry will have to really look at his life as he tries to decide if he even wants to fight for anything at all.

The plot of the book is actually pretty simple, a person trying to find meaning to a difficult life, having lost people along the way and pushing aside others.The plot follows Henry through the days before the end of the world as we get to see m0re and more of his life.

The book is about grief and overcoming it as well as looking for meaning in life, friendship, reaching out for help, trusting others, bullying and finding the right people to have around. Also, the book touches issues in mental health and suicide (obviously).

The characters were really intense, even the less important ones. I could see myself a lot in Henry. The way he sees the world is mostly through a depressed person’s eyes, and you can feel it in the way he describes what’s happening, his thoughts and such. His suffering is palpable.

The secondary characters felt three dimensional and real as well, many times authors neglect these characters but this wasn’t the case. Their presences and storylines were meaningful too.  In some way, you can see yourself in them too.

Henry’s love interest in the book, Diego Vega, is one ray of sunshine. I know this is a weird thing to talk about in a review, but i just had to say it. He was such a sweetheart.

The interactions between Henry and the people around him made me wonder a lot about what Henry suffered from. At one point Henry says he visited psychiatrists and psychologists before and he was given a diagnose his mother didn’t believe in. Now, knowing that his mother dismissed it, i can’t help but wonder if the author actually did too, or he was actually telling us what Henry going through. I wish i could know because it wasn’t just a mental illness but a mental disorder and those never make the cut in, though awareness of mental disorders should be as important as mental illnesses.

The writing style of the book is absolutely fantastic, within a few paragraphs i was awed and attached to the characters and the story.

Honestly, there are so many great quotes and eloquent was of tale tell is amazing.

Out in the world, crawiling in a field at the edge of some bullshit town with a name like Shoshoni or Medicine Bow, is an ant. You weren’t aware of it. Didn’t know whether it was a soldier, a drone, or the queen. Didn’t care if it was scouting for food to drag back to the nest or bulding new tunnels for wriggly ant larvae. Until now that ant simply didn’t exist for you. If I hadn’t mentioned it, you would have continued with your life[…] But whether you knew  about it or not. that ant is still out there doing ant things while you wait for the next text message to prove that out of the seven billion self-centred people onthis planet, you are important.[…]

But you don’t.

Because we are the ants.

Also, the pace of the book is pretty forward,  there isn’t a moment where the story gets boring or dull.

I know i should comment on the stuff i didn’t like about the book, but to be honest there wasn’t such a thing. Seriously, i’m in love with this book.

Before i leave you, i wanted to share with you this amazing “We are the ants” short story i just found about, you can read it here. Obviously, read it after you finish the book so it won’t spoil anything for you.

‘Til next time 😉