Would you write it?

This year i’ve read more books than ever before, and it feels great, i found many amazing books. The problem is, along with all those great books i also found some that weren’t that great, actually some of them were simply terrible.

While some of the books i didn’t like i just dropped because i couldn’t stand them, some i did finish, and even though i didn’t enjoy them, they made me think quite a lot.

When books make me think this much i tend to want to write about them, and that’s what i do everytime an amazing book inspires me.

But what should i do with the inspiration i get from bad books?

This is a problem i’ve been thinking about a lot lately, because although i feel i wasted time reading those books i have so much to say about them…

What could be wrong with a bad review? you’ll say, and well, i’m a person that really can’t come and start saying bad things about something or someone without feeling realy bad about it, so i find myself in this kind of conundrum(y) situation, where i really want to say what i’m thinking but i wouldn’t feel right with myself because of it…

Also, some place i read or heard about this one author (i can’t remember the name) who stalked a reader because she wrote a bad review of the book, which i find super creepy, like, seriously, what’s wrong with this person.

Okay, so i’m pretty sure no author could find me, mostly because i live so far away from everything, but the fact that someone could find my words to be rude, i can’t stand it. I don’t like being rude, do you know the quote “don’t do to others what you don’t want done to you” ? well, i live by that, i would never do to anyone something i would be hurt by.

While i know it may sound weird, i really believe in that, like, okay.. if i were to write a book i would want people to enjoy it, i mean… i understand that it’s impossible for every single person in the world to like the same thing, heck, i wonder if all those bestsellers are really so good or it is just people following those who said it’s a good book… but when the book isn’t that great, you know, someone worked hard on it anyway… someone give it time and cared enough about it, i just can’t be rude…

But then again, i wonder if i’m not just thinking this things too much? like, who would even read or care about my view on the book/series/show/movie really? The internet is so full of opinions and such, what gives someone will precisely care about what i have to say about anything?

Anyway… would you write a bad review? … do you think it is as important as writing a good review? because, when really thinking about it, yeah, i like to recommend good books, but also, isn’t it important to tell people when you don’t think a book is worth their time?

‘Til next time! 😉

 

no time, no internet, no nothing

These past days have been a nightmare, i don’t have internet in the new apartment yet, so i’m bored and with nothing to do.. i also haven’t had a lot of free time, i’ve been pretty stuffed with so much with all the moving and so…Although i planned so much, i haven’t done any of those things. The reviews i had in mind and all are still to be written, and my room is still to be ordered… i hope will be back soon..

Really? But I just made up my mind!

I’m not big on politics…in fact until a few days ago i couldn’t even understand how could anyone find it interesting (actually I’m still working on finding the appeal) but elections are coming and i have to make up my mind… Lucky me a gal at work is a big fan of a satirical political program, and so for  the last week (i think) i’ve been learning about the different parties and their positions on the many topics i do care about.

To be honest the humor on the show is a bit too much sometimes, they cross basic limits, but most of the time they are funny enough for me to actually laugh. for the record; me liking the show has nothing to do with the crush i have on the presenter. Which is great, because i remember the political programs my grandma used to watch and they were BORING. But she was a lot of fun to look at, she used to talk to the tv and curse a lot.

Even more funny is that as an immigrant i have the right to vote in two different countries, and i just can’t decide which one is more troublesome to vote for… Never in my life i thought i would actually have trouble deciding to whom should i vote.

It could all be very easy,… i could enjoy the sabatical and not vote, but last year i read the book “Vote For Larry” by Janet Tashjian and even though “The Gospel According To Larry” was way more enjoyable and it is largely responsible for the person i became  (topic to be discussed another time), it made me understand that even if i’m young, my voice is important, and  if enough people decide to make something possible, it will come to pass.

Yes, we are young and we may not see the world as previous generations do, but that’s because we grew up in a “different” world, and one day, we’ll be in their place and we’ll have to make the difficult decisions. It’s not about like we can let it be now and then care when we are the responsible adults, because ’til then the older generations could make so many bad decisions, it could destroy our whole future, if we get one.

So, there i was, completely confused, trying to find myself in the political spectrum, watching a show with three “lefties” and a “righty” (that i have a crush on) trying to answer all the questions that popped in my mind: what do i believe? what do i want? what parties are there? is it important for me to vote in both countries? 

Luckly, my brother is a big fan of politics (he is 15 and he really enjoys it…), so he kind of explained to me about the left parties and the ideas they have and how could those ruin our future… i was kinda skeptic at first but then he showed me pamphlets and stuff that shocked me.

On the other hand there’s this gal at my work place, a strong left winged gal, not only wants me to vote the party she likes, she also has a problem with my crush on the presenter of the show she got me obsessed with.

Now both of them are talking about politics all the time, trying to gain my vote, as if they were the ones running, and i had my own opinion, but they made me rethink all my beliefs.

Politics are a messy thing, and again i’m not sure why would anyone find it interesting, apart of the politicians, … and most of them are there only for the money and the privileges…

As the “modern world” we are we believe our government form is the rightest, but i can’t help but think that maybe we are still missing the best government form, one that no one thought about yet, because the ones we already know are all pretty crappy…

And maybe the government it’s not the problem but the people in control of our countries, maybe we are yet to find the right leader, the one that will make things better for ALL of us, not only for the rich or the lazy…

I have this crazy idea, in which the great leader we are waiting for,  is at home, doing nothing, not knowing they’re what we really need at this very moment, not realizing how much they’d done for so many people already… i made it sound pretty religious, but believe me it isn’t,  … religion is not my strong suit…

And with these words i’ll leave you now, because i’m very tired today i’worked the morning shift, i had to wake up 4:30am, and yesterday i worked until 11:30pm… so yeah…i’m actually looking for a party that cares about the simple workers…

 

 

Thoughts, Ideas and Questions

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

FRANK OUTLAW
Late President of the Bi-Lo Stores

Let’s pretend for a second… Let’s pretend i have an idea of what am i doing, what and how to write it… because if we don’t pretend i won’t get there any time soon…

So, yeah… (let’s be honest) i don’t spend as much time as i would want in front of the computer trying to write entries, but i do go everywhere with my little notebook, trying to find the right words to describe things, words i cannot find even when my mind is so full of them, they wake me up at night because they have the need of being said, or thought or whatever they want from me.

Is it just me? I hadn’t found another person in my surroundings with the same problem, like, at first i was sure it’s normal to wake up 3am to think a little more … but at some point people started to tell me they didn’t and i started asking myself why do i need to wake up in the middle of the night just so words could cross my mind, don’t i have enough time in the day to do it?

I was told once a normal person has about 30,000 thoughts per day, but now i just read it’s about 50,000 which seems more accurate to my situation, but even then, i have the feeling that my mind is in a race and no other person is even near to all the thoughts my brain produces per day. It may sound a bit arrogant (or not, my standard for arrogancy is pretty low) but i can find myself not even having the *time* to finish one thought and my mind is already thinking about another five things and then i have to go back and finsih the thougth, because even though i know the end of it i just can’t continue if my mind didn’t finish its saying…

Once i asked my mother about it, she told me it doesn’t happen to her, but it may happen to other people, i’m yet to find them, though.

Another thing i’m looking for is people who can think about different things simultaniously,  it can be any kind of idea, memories, songs, pictures… it couldd be anything really. Also, if you know anyone who can think in colours, i would really like to know about it.

Is it such a weird thing or i’m just looking for these people in the wrong places? Like, there’s so many people in the world and so little patterns to our beings, it must repeat itself somewhere, right? Is someone out there I already know like me but i couldn’t see it in them?

I’m starting to think the problem with my entries is how selfcentred i’m when i start writing them.. As if anyone would even care about what a random anonymous girl would have to say, as if there weren’t already so many people speaking their minds on the internet, but at the same time, if they can do it why shouldn’t I?

Cold days and lack of productivity…

Apparently it doesn’t matter the precision with which i make plans, because the universe keeps doing whatever it wants. I had this rigorous schedule planned of how many times a week I’ll be posting, and it sounded great, but the same day i was suppose to start working on it my computer decided to update itself and somehow stopped working. I haven’t had the time to send it to repair yet, so I’m currently working with my iPhone mostly. Very lucky to have it, but all my stuff was on that computer, all the stuff I’d been collecting for years I’m guessing it’s going all to waste…
Anyway, i tried to see this in incident in a bright light, telling myself this will give me more time to read and so… But somehow non of the books on my tbr list seems to catch my attention very much, i have to go to the library, I’m such an idiot i should have taken “after dark” by Haruki Murakami but no, I took this incredibly boring book that I’m still reading just because…
Now my tbr list is actually pretty long, and i only have about 10% of it wih me right now, some of the books are at my parents’s house, and many I’m yet to purchase, but how come I don’t find any of the ones i currently have appealing it’s beyond my comprehension. Like, i have 25 books waiting for me just across my room, and i just can’t bring myself to start reading any of them. These days are nothing but a waste of time really. Nothing went as expected, the first week of the year looked so promising and then somehow everything just went to hell, new year’s what? Resolutions? Did I made a list of those? All I’ve been doing is complaining about the cold, because i couldn’t feel my fingers anymore and my nails were kind of bluish, and staring at my book shelves expecting from the books to
magically become appealing.
…wish me luck