Thoughts on Thursday: When The Narrator Says “Gif”

[[Thoughts on Thursday is a sporadic kind of post i make sometimes on Thursdays. It’s about whatever comes to mind and it might make no sense at all.]]

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I know Thursdays are now Review day, but i couldn’t get my thoughts on writing about The Falling In Love Montage by Ciara Smyth, so i decided to talk about something else today.

I don’t know how much you know about me, but you gotta know, i’m a huge fan of audiobooks. They keep me company at work, they come with me when i travel. I’ve been listening since 2014 non-stop. Seriously, i love them.

Or i did love them. No, i’m kidding i still love them and think it’s a great way of learning english and practice it.

But the other day i was listening to an audiobook when it happened;

The narrator had to say the word “GIF” and he said “JIF”.

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Now, i know this is one of the most controversial things in the world, how to say the word gif, and i know i may be putting myself in a very problematic place by saying this, but omg, i didn’t even understood that he was saying gif until a while later when they kep talking about it in the book.

I don’t have people around me to discuss this topic because the people i know don’t even know what a gif is, but like in the internet this is huge, and i wondered to myself how many people have listened to the same audiobook (i can’t remember which one it was) and had the same problem as i did, how many people was okay with him saying Jif?!

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I know the inventor of gifs says it is said jif, but i mean, come on, the G is for GRAPHICS. It should be said as in give.

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And then i had a realization, do every narrator say it differently? Like, if it was someone else narrating the book it would have been Gif, or like, it’s something they tell them so say that way? I have a lot of questions about the topic and none of them are being answered. WELP.

I’m definitely having a crisis.

How do you say it? I mean, we all have our own way of saying it. Are you a Gif person or a Jif person? Leave your response down below!

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Thoughts on Thursday #2: The friendship experience.

Thoughts on Thursday is an original section in which i share feelings and stories, a safe place. You are invited to see into my soul, but you don’t have to. The only thing i’ll ask for is, please no hate in the comments if there are any.

I have very good friends, they live with me and in me. They are always by my side, and they will never leave me unless i want them to.

I have friends, but people say the are just books.

Those are the friends i have because i real life i’m alone. Like honest to god alone.

I don’t know when it started but i was never a people’s person… i may be a people’s pleaser but not a person. I only have people i know. And i know it sounds extreme and an exageration, but i’m so alone it hurts. And so, i always keep myself accompanied by a book, a series, a movie, something that will make me forget i’m alone.

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I used to have one friend, a real soulmate, but she found someone else and left me alone. I never see her anymore, and not only because of lockdowns and such, it was long before. I don’t know where i lost her and if she doesn’t care we were soulmates.

I didn’t love her that way but sometimes your soulmate isn’t your mate. I don’t know how she feels anymore, weused to be so close. And it hurts, it hurts a lot to know that she doesn’t care about me the way i care about her.

I don’t matter to her anymore, i can see it.

She never calls, she never cares whether i’m doing fine, she never answers my phonecalls anymore. You know, i sued to believe that friends can be forever, but now i see that isn’t true. People move on, people leave you behind, they forget about you.

And what about you? Do you forget them?

I don’t. I didn’t have many friends in my whole life, but the ones i had they were important to me and i don’t want to forget them. I don’t want to leave them. If it depended on me we would still be friends.

But people grow tired of me, of my silliness, on my love for imagined worlds.

They grow tired of me.

I’ll never have a real friend, one that will be there for me when i need them, they only use me when they need me. That’s who i am. Someone to be used.

I don’t mean anything,

to anyone.

And that’s okay,

because i have my friends,

the ones that are always there

when i need them.

I have my books.

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Thoughts on Thursday: The SPN experience.

Thoughts on Thursday: The SPN experience.

This is a safe space where i’ll be processing some thoughts… it may come back and it may not… but right now i need to get this thoughts out so here it goes…

This may have some sort of spoilers, so if you don’t want to be spoiled on anything Supernatural related.. please stop reading.

Supernatural recap: Season 13, Episode 8 |
The Winchester brothers, part of my life as a fangirl, part of my youth, my memories and everything in between.

I was a Supernatural fan… i’d been a fan for a very long time, from like season 2 or something. I remember how i started watching it and my sister telling she would tell my mom that i’m watching scary stuff when i’m known for being afraid of my own shadow.

I remember loving the Winchester brothers and having a crush on Jared Padalecki since forever… but when you end up fighting God’s sister clearly you are running out of ideas, or so i thought.

I stopped watching Supernatural years ago, in the beginning of season 12… only came back for the Scooby Doo episode. But knowing it was ending i prepared myself to catch up and finish a tv show, because i spent not only my time watching the show once until then… i watched it a few times over the years.

I thought i should “pay my respects” to the show…

I don’t even know.

It ended and tumblr is exploding. Actually, it started the explosion with S15E18 when Castiel told Dean he loves (loved) him.

Now, i shipped Destiel for a long while… and maybe i stopped watching the show because i was mad it was queerbaiting… i don’t really remember but i know i always felt it was never gonna happen.

Anyway, Castiel ended up having feelings for Dean (what a shock) obviously, for me Dean doesn’t have feeling for Castiel … or so you’ll think after the performance Jensen Ackles gave on that scene.

The thing is apparently Dean says he loves Cass too… (I heard it, he does say it) which is funny and infuriating all at the same time.

Did they want to make it queer at the end? If so, what changed? Is love different for angels? Who the hell thought sending Castiel to super mega hyper hell after admiting loving Dean was a good idea and message to the community????

Hell, if i know.

But people are raging, and i understand them… but it also makes me wonder, should i finish watching the show or not? Is it bad if i watch i on netflix? does it even matter? Do i matter?

Clearly, the audience didn’t matter much to the writers, if they did what they did to the characters at the end… there are a bunch of conspiracy theories going around about the ending of the show. I chose not to mind them too much because otherwise i’ll spiral into the neverending craziness in my head and we might never get an answer.

Since i’m on tumblr and i’m not blind, i pretty much know the ending, they are gifing everything, so there are no secrets, and i don’t really mind spoilers most of the time so i could watch it… but do i want to? I mean, a part of me obviously does, I love Sam Winchester, i want to see as much of him as i can… but i also gave up on it for a reason back in the day… and they upsetted a ton of people…

I’m being torn apart and i wanna be free of this pain… (yeah, i still quote Kylo Ren sometimes…), but i don’t know if i should do it or not.

I mean… Jared… but at the same time everything else.

Please, don’t get me wrong, i appreciate most of the people who participated on the show i don’t wanna be disrespectful to any of them… but Jared is JARED.

At the same time… when i left it, it was still going on.. and for me it will carry on (obviously on purpose) because of that and giving it an end will be like… idk… too much? Too hurtful? Seeing the ending could send me into a spiral of rewatching the show again and again, and it’s 15 seasons… which could consume my life when i just got back to normal, and reading and being okay and finally having plans in my life…

It’s just four seasons… four seasons and it will be over for me… but do i want it to be over?? Do i prefer having them as they were 4 seasons back or do i want their end? If i do watch am i betraying my community?

It’s too much…

Now i suddenly have the urge of ending my fanfiction about them… and starting a new one that it’s coming alive in my head right this moment.

I think i’ll leave this open for now, i have the option of watching it on netflix, i might do it someday… but i’m not sure today is the day… i’m not ready to saying good bye to Sam and Dean and Castiel yet. I guess it won’t be over for now… maybe the moment i see them in different tv shows will be the right moment, to let them go… speaking of letting go, i’m coming up with my next talk idea..

Letting go is so difficult, especially when these characters helped you through hard times.

Shot, i totally remember being super scared of season four and like, not being able to sleep for some reason… yes… the times when my life went to hell along with the Winchesters.

I love them, i totally do… i just, don’t want to day goodbye forever yet… and i know i can rewatch it, i’m just not ready for that either.

Carry On!