MHAM: Books I Want To Read

Before the month ends, …  thought i could share some of the books about mental illness that are sitting on my TBR, because, why not? you may find them interesting yourself and you may check them too!

It's Kind of a Funny Story It’s Kind Of A Funny Story by Ned Vizzini.

Synopsis: Ambitious New York City teenager Craig Gilner is determined to succeed at life – which means getting into the right high school to get into the right job. But once Craig aces his way into Manhattan’s Executive Pre-Professional High School, the pressure becomes unbearable. He stops eating and sleeping until, one night, he nearly kills himself.

Craig’s suicidal episode gets him checked into a mental hospital, where his new neighbors include a transsexual sex addict, a girl who has scarred her own face with scissors, and the self-elected President Armelio. There, Craig is finally able to confront the sources of his anxiety.

The author himself spent time in a psychiatric hospital … sadly even though he wrote an unexpected journey to happiness, he ended his life in 2013.

The Bell Jar The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath.

Synopsis: Sylvia Plath’s shocking, realistic, and intensely emotional novel about a woman falling into the grip of insanity.

Esther Greenwood is brilliant, beautiful, enormously talented, and successful, but slowly going under—maybe for the last time. In her acclaimed and enduring masterwork, Sylvia Plath brilliantly draws the reader into Esther’s breakdown with such intensity that her insanity becomes palpably real, even rational—as accessible an experience as going to the movies. A deep penetration into the darkest and most harrowing corners of the human psyche, The Bell Jar is an extraordinary accomplishment and a haunting American classic.

I feel this book is a must in my life, yet, i haven’t found the right time and mood to read it since i feel i really need to be in the exact (and right) state of mind to read it … Sylvia Plath is another amazing author who ended her own life.

Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness by Susannah Cahalan.

Synopsis: When twenty-four-year-old Susannah Cahalan woke up alone in a hospital room, strapped to her bed and unable to move or speak, she had no memory of how she’d gotten there. Days earlier, she had been on the threshold of a new, adult life: at the beginning of her first serious relationship and a promising career at a major New York newspaper. Now she was labeled violent, psychotic, a flight risk. What happened?

In a swift and breathtaking narrative, Cahalan tells the astonishing true story of her descent into madness, her family’s inspiring faith in her, and the lifesaving diagnosis that nearly didn’t happen.

An interesting story to say the least. I’ve been planning on reading this book for months now, i just need to find the right moment…

Suicide Notes Suicide Notes by Michael Thomas Ford.

Synopsis: I’m not crazy. I don’t see what the big deal is about what happened. But apparently, someone does think it’s a big deal because here I am. I bet it was my mother. She always overreacts.

Fifteen-year-old Jeff wakes up on New Year’s Day to find himself in the hospital. Make that the psychiatric ward. With the nutjobs. Clearly, this is all a huge mistake. Forget about the bandages on his wrists and the notes on his chart. Forget about his problems with his best friend, Allie, and her boyfriend, Burke. Jeff’s perfectly fine, perfectly normal, not like the other kids in the hospital with him. Now they’ve got problems. But a funny thing happens as his forty-five-day sentence drags on: the crazies start to seem less crazy.

This book has been sitting on my kindle waiting for me to pick it up for ages now, and i really don’t know why haven’t i … i hope i get to it soon enough… i haven’t read nearly as many books about mental health as i expect this far.

Cut Cut by Patricia McCormick.

Synopsis: Callie cuts herself. Never too deep, never enough to die. But enough to feel the pain. Enough to feel the scream inside.

Now she’s at Sea Pines, a “residential treatment facility” filled with girls struggling with problems of their own. Callie doesn’t want to have anything to do with them. She doesn’t want to have anything to do with anyone. She won’t even speak.

But Callie can only stay silent for so long…

Since i’ve been hospitalized twice and i lived with mentally ill people (as myself) for years, i’ve meet many people who cut themselves as a way of releasing pain.. now, i find this book a very interesting way of entering the mind of this kind of people or at least that’s what i hope i’ll be finding when i read this book. Interesting and promising.

The Shock of the Fall The Shock of the Fall by Nathan Filer.

Synopsis: ‘I’ll tell you what happened because it will be a good way to introduce my brother. His name’s Simon. I think you’re going to like him. I really do. But in a couple of pages he’ll be dead. And he was never the same after that.’

There are books you can’t stop reading, which keep you up all night.

There are books which let us into the hidden parts of life and make them vividly real.

There are books which, because of the sheer skill with which every word is chosen, linger in your mind for days.

The Shock of the Fall is all of these books.

The Shock of the Fall is an extraordinary portrait of one man’s descent into mental illness. It is a brave and groundbreaking novel from one of the most exciting new voices in fiction.

I think this book isn’t just about mental illness but also about grief? … i’m not quite sure, but i’ve been wanting to read this book for at least a year now.. i’m just a little worried about how much it may hurt to actually read it.. it looks like such a promising book… i’m sure i’ll manage to read it soon enough.

Well, these are the six books about mental illness/health i’ve been looking forward to read the most… obviously there are other books about the topic have on my TBR, but these are the ones calling me the most…

Do you have any books about mental health you are looking forward to read? if so.. what are they?

’til next time 😉

firma

MHAM: YA Book Recommendations

Hey guys!  This month is running so fast! I cannot believe we are almost half way through and i still haven’t shared with you the posts i wanted and planned to!

Okay, now that i’m here i thought to give you a few recommendations for YA books about mental illness … I hope you find some of them interesting for you! Check them out!!

The Rest of Us Just Live Here The Rest Of Us Just Live Here by Patrick Ness

This book describes perfectly how it is to live with a mental illness. There’s one chapter that just blew my mind in which the main character has a talk with his therapist and it is just uncanny how realistic it is.

Made You Up Made You Up by Francesca Zappia

The narrator of this book suffers from Schizophrenia.  This one is still on my TBR, but the little i read of this looks really promising and truthful.

WintergirlsWintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson

This book touches the topics of anorexia, depression, self-harm and the need of so many young people of being perfect.

Highly Illogical Behavior Highly Illogical Behavior by John Corey Whaley

The main character of this book suffers from social anxiety and hasn’t left home in years. On this great story, a girl decides she wants to help him get better and a beautiful friendship is born.

All the Bright Places All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven

A book about depression and bipolar disorder. This book has been really important to me for a very long time. It deals with very difficult topics and in my opinion, does it pretty well.

Finding Audrey Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella

After a bullying incident at school, the main character of this book developed an anxiety disorder. As we follow her life without getting out of her house and how this changes because of something or someone. I don’t personally agree with that idea but it is nicely written and many people liked this book very much.

 

firma

May is Mental Health Awareness Month

I know it’s been a really long time since i wrote something for the blog, and to be completely honest it’s all Skam’s fault.  In case you don’t know what Skam is… well, it’s THE TV SHOW… i’ll be posting about it sometime soon… or at least i hope.

Anyway, this month is Mental Health Awareness Month.

As a person battling mental illness since i was 16 (though i’m pretty sure it started before, but i was diagnosed at 16) i believe it’s part of my ‘job’ to talk about this topic. Obviously relating this to books, since my blog is about books and literature, but not only that.

I was hoping you could give me your opinion on what would you want to read about relating to mental health, i have a lot to say about it, but i don’t wanna just throw all of that to you.

Obviously, this month i have a tbr just consisting of books that feature mentally ill characters, which i hope will make the cut and become reviews.  I’ll be posting the

I’ll be posting the tbr later in the week. I want to talk about mentally ill characters and their representation on books and tv shows. I’ll be giving some book recommendations and i may talk about books that didn’t work out for me. Maybe,  if you want me to also recommend some movies or just talk about own experiences, or if you want to share your on experience with mental illness… i’m open to all ideas right now.

I truly see this month as an opportunity to make a change in how people see and think about mental illness. I think it’s our job to make the difference, to speak up about the issue and not be afraid to say ‘yeah, i suffer from…’ (in my case depression and avoidant personality disorder).

So yes, i’m open to ideas and any recommendations really at the moment.

I hope we can make the best of this month.

‘Til next time!

firma

 

 

Some previous posts i made on the topic of mental illness:

Mental Illness & Literature.

#Life With A Mental Illness

Mental Illness & Literature.

Lately i’ve been trying to find the words to a lot of ideas i have. After a while, i ditched a few posts i was writing and i couldn’t find my way back to the blog. I guess, what i am trying to say is, sorry for being absent this much the last few months. The why is without a doubt related to the topic i want to talk about today.

Yesterday was my birthday World Bipolar Day and i thought it would be good to talk about this topic in general since mental illness and literature go far way back together.

It’s not a secret that many famous authors had a Bipolar Disorder, and many of them either tried to hurt themselves or succeeded in committing suicide.

Authors like Virginia Woolf, Sylvia Plath, Mark Twain, Ernest Hemingway are only a few of those who left their mark in literature’s history, authors whose books are still relevant and loved by many.

Personally, i haven’t read many books written by mentally ill authors, mostly because they have a huge impact on my life when i do. I’ll forever remember the time when i read J.D. Salinger, it was about 7 years ago and i was obsessed, but also, i felt more sick than usual while reading his works. For this to make any sense you need to know that i suffer from Depression and have an Avoidant Personality Disorder.

So, his works weren’t the best i could read at the moment i did read them and the fear of falling into a deeper state of depression stayed forever in my mind. Still, i will always love Holden Caufield and all the letters i wrote to him at the time are well preserved.  But we aren’t here to talk about me.

The thing is, these past few weeks i’ve been watching (obsessively so if i say it myself) a tv show where they touch the subject of mental illness. The show is mostly for teenagers (…) but is great. It teaches so much more than all the crap going on most shows these days.

The portrait of the mental illness in the show many be a bit off on timing because it is a show with short seasons, but it really shows not only the way a person suffers from a manic episode and then the fall to the depressive one but also the side of the people around the person in a very real way. (if you want to know the name of the show just tell me).

The thing was, it felt real, very real, because of many things. The fact that a person may not be as comfortable on sharing even with the people they care about that they have a mental illness, how people that don’t understand about it may  find it hard to be around mentally ill people even if they are their family, the lonely feelings of a suffering mind, and the truest fact of them all;  Love may help you get through difficult times, but it will not cure your mental illness.

This was the fact that got me the most. As a person suffering from a mental illness myself, as i said before, i have my share of feelings and emotions i went through while in my worst times. Obviously, each one of us is a world on our own, but many tend to feel the same or pretty close to each other in the kind of feelings and can relate to these stories, this is not a thing that happens. I’ve meet a lot of people with mental illnesses and many kinds of them, and never ever saw that falling in love suddenly saved someone from themselves.

And now to the very point i wanted to make. As you can see from my blog, i mostly read YA books, and this is just fine. You see, there a lots of topics to read about in YA literature as in any other genre. The thing is, for some reason, the tropes in YA literature blook-down down on the readers.

This happens with most tropes but the mental illness card or the illnesses at all in YA literature uses love as a magical weapon that can save you from everything. Ridiculous. There is a terrible amount of books I’ve read about mentally ill characters where the love interest somehow manages to get them to feel all better and then life is amazing again, like these characters weren’t ill at all, ever.

Are you seriously trying to sell me the idea that finding love can cure me of my depression? Well, i’ll be damn, i need to get me a boyfriend ASAP then.

No, really. For some reason, as the internet became a place where people look for validation from others and for them to be the most special person ever, mental illness becomes a way for them to stand out(and i do realise this may sound ironic, because i just said that i’m mentally ill myself and i could be looking for the same validation, but i don’t) and so the YA literature gives them, even more ideas and reasons for them to pretend to be ill.

Obviously, there are mentally ill people, young people and older ones and they are all valid and real, but also there are some people looking to sound ‘cool’.

Well, mental illness is not a ‘cool’ thing to have and that is exactly why i think the way YA literature uses many times the topic in a very loosely way and that feels just wrong.

Sure, mental illness is a topic that needs to be talked about, it’s important because many may not even know they should get themselves some medical help and such and these books create awareness on the topic. But they need to take themselves seriously enough and be more real with the people so they don’t create false expectations on the readers, especially on those who suffer from these illnesses.

Well, i wish i could go on and on on the topic right now but i have some other stuff to work on right now.

I hope this didn’t feel disrespectful or anything like that, obviously this was written only because i felt the need to bring this issue to my blog somehow. I’ll be writing more on the topic as the Mental Health Month Awareness get closer.

Have a good day!

firma