I want to be a reader.

Many kids wanted to be firefighters when they grow up. Some others want to be astronauts or police officers. When i was 5 i wanted to study the stars and the universe, until the day i discovered the joy of reading books and all i wanted was to be a reader.

Sure, being a reader is not a fulltime job, for most people, but as the time and life pass by i’m pretty convinced it’s the thing i want the most.

These days i struggle a lot to read even the news, and that’s because i’m not able to concentrate for long periods of time. I used to listen to audiobooks for 8 hours straight at work, but as it seems now, those times are pretty much gone. I used to sit for hours and hours to read and could finish a book in on sit, but not anymore.

I could look at my *read list* for 2018, i know it’s only March but i’m way behind years prior, and tell myself to give up because reading one book a month is not being a reader. I could watch a million youtube videos of booktubers showing the many books they read last month and feel like a failure.

I could just give up reading because i can’t concentrate and to be honest most people won’t care if you read or not. Actually, most people i know look at me funny because i always have a book in my bag.

But you see.. as i struggle every day to read even a few words just so i don’t lose the habit i came to realize what i love about reading.

I love the way words meet each other and make sentences, wonderful sentences and the way those sentences make up a story. A story someone felt the need to tell the world. Just think about so many writers full of amazing and magical worlds they are wanting to share with everyone who will be willing to read them.

As i sit in my room and stare at my bookshelves, i can’t help but think of all the things those books sitting there are waiting to tell me, the stories and the worlds they are dying to share with me.

I’m the perfect example for the word “loner” and many times i’m very lonely, but then i can get a book in my hands and meet with beloved friends i know and love with all my heart. Because yeah, they can be fictional, but the way feel about them and the way their stories make me feel is real.

Those books, sitting on my shelves and the ones i haven’t bought yet but i will one day and i’ll read and i’ll cry, and i’ll laugh… they mean something. They are the reason i want to be a reader.

Being a reader is not only sitting 10 hours straight reading a book that just came out just to finish it, it also means appreciating the work of the author, enjoy the reading, rereading books you love, caring about fictional characters, waiting for the next book in a series you love, by an author you like.

Being a reader it’s a lot of little things. It’s not just reading. It’s discovering worlds and finding people who love the same places and stories as you do, dreaming of getting to places like magical schools or finding sleeping kings.

Being a reader is to enter the dreams of others and making them also your own. It’s to love and to hate fiercely, caring and dreaming yourself. It’s finding a common ground for all the different dreamers out there and dare to keep dreaming even when you are awake.

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