History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

History Is All You Left MeHistory Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

Genre: YA, GLBT.
Pages: 320
Publisher: Soho Teens
Rating: 5 stars

Summary: When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

My Opinion On The Book:

There’s a blessing on reading books. Whenever you find yourself inverse in a different world where you can feel the pain of others as yours, feel close and intimate with the characters, feel as they come to life, that’s a blessing.

Over the years i felt as if the written words and I were falling apart like i wasn’t supposed to be the reader i am today. Three years ago i decided books and i weren’t done, i love to read and this book is one of the most important reasons why.

History is all you left me tell us the story of Griffin, a guy who just lost his first love and ex-boyfriend in a drowning accident. In the book we get to see their story, their history and how is he coping with the loss.

History is all you left me is a book about grief, about love, about being honest to others and to yourself, about loss and moving on or not.

When i first read the synopsis of the book i was expecting something completely different from what the book is really about and i’m really happy it’s that way because if the book was how i imagined i wouldn’t have loved it as much as i did.

I commented on a previous post (Tears Are All You Left Me.) that i was struggling with finishing reading the book because it drained me, i was feeling too much with this book, i felt the ache and the grief, the characters felt too real and the story was written in such a way i just, i was in love with it while also felt like i couldn’t handle it.

I had to put the book aside for almost a week because i couldn’t stop crying, from the very beginning and to the very end.

 

True feelings about this book

Still, reading this book, even though it broke me to more pieces than i thought i could every be broken to was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. This book brought me back to a place i thought i lost forever. Caring about something this deeply even though people like to remind me it’s just a story someone wrote, fictional, fictional, FICTIONAL feels as good as it feels heartbreaking.

 

This is te first book i read by Adam Silvera, and though i have the feeling More Happy Than Not would break my heart if read it too, there’s no way in hell i won’t be reading it the moment i feel in place good enough to be strong and able to endure it. I think Adam’s writing is so beautiful, raw and emotional it left me with no words to truly describe the way i feel.

I finished the book last night and i was so full of ache and hurt but at the same time so happy i read something this wonderful, i couldn’t sleep. Until about 5 am when i finally cried myself to sleep. Now, while writing this my eyes are full of tears and i’m not sure if it is because i feel so sad about the story or the fact it is over or maybe i’m crying from pure joy of reading it.

Anyway, there’s not doubt in my mind this book is now one of my favorites forever, a book  i hope i have the strength to reread someday, maybe not tomorrow or this year, but one day.

I’m so thankful to Adam for writing this book, i wish i could actually put to words my tears.

There’s one quote though that i kept thinking about when i finished reading the book:

“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places.” Ernest Hemingway. 

I’m not sure if i thought about it because of the characters or the way i’m feeling, so broken, but i believe it fits the best the way i’m currently feeling.

I think i talked about myself and my feelings instead of the book itself, but also, i think the way the book made me so emotinal says something really powerful about the book, doesn’t it?

This story is an experience i wouldn’t change for the world. I truly recommend it, with all my heart, and my soul and spirit, because this book these words can touch you ina way it could crush your heart and still you’ll be thankful with the book for doing it.

Resultado de imagen para the heart was made to be broken

p.d: my sister told me, i shouldn’t have read the book if it was so sad, she said i should’ve waited a week, a month, a year if i knew it would make me cry this bad.

 

Scarlet by Marissa Meyer

Scarlet (The Lunar Chronicles, #2)Scarlet by Marissa Meyer

Genre: YA, Fantasy, Fairy Tale Retelling, Dystopia
Pages: 452
Publisher: Feiwel & Friends
Rating: 4 stars

Summary: Cinder, the cyborg mechanic, returns in the second thrilling installment of the bestselling Lunar Chronicles. She’s trying to break out of prison—even though if she succeeds, she’ll be the Commonwealth’s most wanted fugitive.

Halfway around the world, Scarlet Benoit’s grandmother is missing. It turns out there are many things Scarlet doesn’t know about her grandmother or the grave danger she has lived in her whole life. When Scarlet encounters Wolf, a street fighter who may have information as to her grandmother’s whereabouts, she is loath to trust this stranger, but is inexplicably drawn to him, and he to her. As Scarlet and Wolf unravel one mystery, they encounter another when they meet Cinder. Now, all of them must stay one step ahead of the vicious Lunar Queen Levana, who will do anything for the handsome Prince Kai to become her husband, her king, her prisoner.

My Opinion On The Book:

I went into the book with an opinion already crafted about it. According to everyone or at least, all the people i read and heard commenting on the book found it to be the most boring one and i was told to bear with the book, because the next one is the best.

So, i had really low expectations for this book. Did the book match my expectations, though? Well, it actually exceeded them by far.

To be completely honest, yes, the beginning is pretty dull. Sure, we get to follow Cinder’s adventures again which makes it bearable at first, but the other side of the story, the part where we meet Scarlet and Wolf seems like it is going nowhere.

Luckily for me, i really pushed through the first few chapters just to find a great and really interesting relationship. Not to mention that the storyline they share together becomes really dynamic, at least in my opinion, after a while. Really, i loved them and their story.

I loved them so much they became my favorite characters on the series, and don’t tell me it will change after i read Cress because i already read it and still i love them more than any other character, but i’ll talk about that one book on it’s own review.

In my opinion the main problem with the book it’s the road… Most people don’t enjoy reading about characters being on the road, which happens in this book quite a lot, which makes it seem like there isn’t a real plot to the book. Also, most people are used to the second book syndrome so they see it everywhere.

So, yeah it is true that at the beginning it is a little difficult to enter the story, but it is not as hard as many say. Seriously, i think the problem with the book is the bad reputation it got everywhere. Let’s say that all the people that read it when it came out still saw it worth it to keep reading the next books and not leave the series as DNF.

Sure, one of the books needs to be the least loved one, and Scarlet got the bad luck of being it. But the writing style, the amazing writing style is stil there, and the story only gets better from here on. So, even if you find it difficult at te beginning you should push through it, be strong for a little while and then enjoy the book because it’s good.

Oh , i love Wolf so much12, don’t get me started on Cress(the book).

Have a bright day!

firma

 

Random Post Sunday: Tears Are All You Left Me.

Oh. Wow, i always wanted to start a post with “oh”.

And now for real.

Last year wasn’t a good reading year for me, i talked about it on my post 2017’s resolution? and i decided this year i will be reading only stuff i want to read, and i’ll give each book i read the time it needs, i won’t be rushing or cutting my sleeping time or forcing myself to read when i’m not feeling like reading.

These three weeks have gone great this far unless you count the book i’m trying to read right now. History is all you left me by Adam Silvera is the book i’m currently reading. Or trying to read.

You see, it’s not that i’m not liking what i’m reading, on the contrary, even if i cannot bring myself to finish it this year it will still be in my top 5 reading of 2017. Yes, i totally mean it.

History is all you left me is a story about loss, love, grief and so much more. I started reading it on a weekend because i knew it would break me to pieces and i won’t be able to function on the week if i was reading it. Still, i’m too broken right now to function anyway.

This book is… so much, i’ve been crying for the very beginning and it makes me cry each time i pick up the book. So far i’m almost half way through it and dehydrated for sure because of all the tears.

I’m normally a very sensitive person and cry a lot because of books but never happened to me that i started crying at the beginning.

It’s really funny because i heard before about the great job Adam Silvera did on More happy than not, but i heard also it was dramatic and i said to myself i wasn’t prepared for something like that for the moment i put the book on my tbr in 2015. Yes, i haven’t read it yet, it’s waiting in my kindle, though. And then for some reason i though i could start reading his books by starting with History is all you left me? Like, am i an idiot?

I mean it, just read the synopsis:

When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

I truly don’t know what was i thinking when i decided to start with this book. My soul is crushed and i don’t know when ill be able to finish reading the book. Still, i’ll do my best to finish it because the pain is so real, i just love the book.

Obviously, if i finish (more like, when i finish) reading the book i’ll make a full review.

Now i just need to breathe deeply and go try read something happier… any recommendations?

Have a bright day!

firma

The Beauty and the Beast Book Tag

Not sure you guys remember, but i like to answer some tag on Saturdays. So, a week or two ago i was tagged by Savannah@TheBookProphet to do The Beauty And The Beast Tag and though i never watched the movie 09  … it is a really cool and awesome tag!

Now, let’s begin!

The Beauty and the Beast Book Tag

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Once Upon a Time, there was a Tale as Old as Time…

The creator of the tag is Bookfandom100 whom i just discovered through the tag but i’m already a fan of hers. Go check her blog out!!

And now we can start;


Rules : 

1)Tag at least four people

2)Thank the creator

3)Make sure you answer honestly


Belle: Someone who is willing to sacrifice themselves for someone they love?

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That is my baby Gabriel Boutin from the Half Life trilogy (my favorite trilogy ever), i think he honestly was willing to give anything for Nathan and please don’t get me started on the matter because it could get very ugly very quickly.

Beast: A good character development? 

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I really can’t think of anyone.. like, i’m currently looking on my goodreads ‘read’ list and all i can see is ‘in these books the characters stay the same’, ‘these characters don’t change’, etc. I think maybe… Nico Di’Angelo? from the Percy Jackson, The Heroes of Olympus and The Trails of Apollo’s series. He changed a lot, not only because he grew up but because he found a place to feel a part of (finally). Okay, i’ll go with Nico.

Lumiere: A character that gives good relationship advice?

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why, these questions are getting really difficult to answer.. i guess the one advice i loved the most was the one Ari’s (from Aristotle&Dante discover the secrets of the universe) father gave Ari, i know it’s not like he’ll go giving advice everywhere, but it was the best one for sure.

Cogsworth: A loyal character (a person you can trust)?

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Hermione Granger, always by Harry’s side. At first, i thought about Ron&Hermione but then i remembered the times Ron stopped talking to Harry or left him, so i figured hewas out of the equation.

Mrs. Potts: A mothering character (a character that you would want as a mom)?

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Forever and Always Mrs. Weasley from the Harry Potter series, like honestly, she is my second and adoptive mother.

Gaston: A character you hate that everybody else loves? 

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Okay, i hope people don’t misunderstand me or hate me for this … i don’t particularly like Percy Jackson (as a character), no, i don’t hate him but i don’t like him that much either… it’s more like an i can stand you and that’s all sort of relationship.

The Enchantress: A person who put a curse on someone?

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All i can think about is the people from Storybrook. Meaning, Regina cursed everyone in the enchanted forest.. or maybe Voldie, he did put a lot of curses on a lot of people… right?

 

I Tag…

Cathy@Bookishfall

Rachael@Rachaelrexds

Ally@WriteAllyWrite

&

Ashley@SociallyAwkwardBookworm

I’m not sure if you were tagged or not … in any case, you are welcomed to answer to the tag if you’ll like 🙂

To everyone else, if you’ll like to do the tag, please send me a link afterward so i can read your answers!

Have a bright day 😉

firma

 

 

Four of a kind by Kellie Sheridan

Four of a Kind

Four of a kind by Kellie Sheridan

Genre: Young Adult
Pages:
202
Publisher: 
Patchwork Press
Rating: 3 stars

Synopsis: The odds of giving birth to identical quadruplets: 1 in 13 million.

The population of Fairview, a town where all anyone talks about is the Fairview Four’s return after fourteen years: 47,327.

The chance of Reagan meeting a guy who sees her as one of a kind: better than she thinks.

Following in her sisters’ footsteps—and, all too often, their shadows—is nothing new to Reagan. But a disastrous first day at Fairview High forces her down a new path, one that could lead to seeing herself as more than just someone else’s sister. Things aren’t going as smoothly for Reilly, Reece, and Rhiannon though. How can Reagan let herself be happy—or dare to fall in love—when she may be the only one who can bring her family back together?

My Opinion On The Book:

Now first of all; I received an e-copy of the book from NetGalley in exchange of my honest opinion.

The story begins as Reagan’s family is moving back to their place of birth, where they became a sensation when the four identical quadruplets were born. She was out the four the only one not as angry as the others for moving there and that was because in their previous city she was the least popular and now she could start anew.

Pretty soon we find out Reagan isn’t very special and that’s one of the things that she is afraid people finding out; that she and her sisters are actually boring.

As they get to the new home, the town’s journalist, her crew, and her son are waiting or them and then – the guy looks at her differently and tada! she gets a crush on him. Figures, the first guy she sees in the ‘new’ town.

The story is a simple one, a family finding their place in a ‘new’ town. The story centers on Reagan and how she successes on making new friends and having a group to rely on even an unfortunate event that happens on her first day in school. Soon she finds herself in a class she wasn’t expecting on attending to and her life suddenly is different.

I think the feelings were shown when she started to meet the new people and how she felt as she was being left behind because they all knew each other already and such felt very real. I really enjoyed the way she connected with most of the people in the group like it felt awkward and it slowly built.

The main problem i had with the story or more like with the characters was the idea of them being four. It felt unnecessary as their characters weren’t developed at all, their relationships weren’t more than superfluous, like having three sisters my age and them being such an important part of my life i would involve them more in it. I felt like their only connection was them being sisters, not real thoughts or many feelings. At moments it looked like it could go somewhere but then, the connection wouldn’t feel real.

I think the book lacked a little in the points of view of the other sisters, it would’ve been nice to know how they felt about Reagan too and their relationships. Though the end of the book made me believe there’s a chance for a sequel where another of the sisters was the main character. I really hope that.

As for the writing and the story it as a very easy going reading, it took me very little time to read it as i felt the words flowed very nicely. I liked the writing style though it felt a little juvenile, i actually believe it could speak to many teenagers and make them read it.

On the book you won’t find much drama, it is more than anything a happy reading, a great way to bring yourself up. I recommend it if you are looking for a slice of life kind of book.

And that’s pretty much all for nowmy dears, have agreat weekend!

firma

 

Swarm (Zeroes #2) by Scott Westerfeld, Margo Lanagan & Deborah Biancotti.

Swarm (Zeroes, #2)Swarm (Zeroes #2) by Scott Westerfeld, Margo Lanagan & Deborah Biancotti.

Genre: YA, Fantasy, Science Fiction
Pages: 464
Publisher: Simon Pulse
Rating: 3.5 stars

Synopsis: They thought they’d already faced their toughest fight. But there’s no relaxing for the reunited Zeroes.

These six teens with unique abilities have taken on bank robbers, drug dealers, and mobsters. Now they’re trying to lay low so they can get their new illegal nightclub off the ground.

But the quiet doesn’t last long when two strangers come to town, bringing with them a whole different kind of crowd-based chaos. And hot on their tails is a crowd-power even more dangerous and sinister.

Up against these new enemies, every Zero is under threat. Mob is crippled by the killing-crowd buzz—is she really evil at her core? Flicker is forced to watch the worst things a crowd can do. Crash’s conscience—and her heart—get a workout. Anon and Scam must both put family loyalties on the line for the sake of survival. And Bellwether’s glorious-leader mojo deserts him.

Who’s left to lead the Zeroes into battle against a new, murderous army?

My opinion on the book:

In the second book of the series, we meet our group of Zeroes again, but this time we also get to meet some new characters and powers. Sure, our Zeroes are now trying to manage their powers, they have a new place to practice, an illegal nightclub where they use their powers on people (or at least some of them). But when a weird incident happens there everything goes to hell.

Now the Zeroes are facing new people with powers, some of them more powerful than the others, and the powers are loathsome.

The story sound, yet again, amazing. As i already commented on my Zeroes review, these books are perfect for me, they are exactly the kind of books i love. I just cannot enjoy them.

There’s something about the writing that i can’t seem to work through, it just bores me to death for most of the book, like i read it because even though it felt as a huge filler all the way through it made me like the characters more than before. Now i have some favorites i truly care about, but that’s just the thing, it ruined me… i shouldn’t care about them.

Oh, my poor little heart.

So, these books are mostly about the powers and the problems they bring to the Zeroes, but there’s also a little romance or a kind of almost-romance… don’t worry, it isn’t much, otherwise, i wouldn’t like it. (sure, one of my favorite series is romance all over the place but just that one i think).

I really don’t know ow to explain it, it isn’t that the writing is bad, it just doesn’t seem to work for me.

Anyway, as in the previous book, as much as the first 85% of the book seemed dull and just random things happening the last 15% was pure craziness. Honestly, i think all the reading was worth it because of those last chapters that were incredible. I was fangirling so badly i couldn’t handle myself almost and that ending, oh my… now i don’t know how will i manage to wait until the next book.

I’m still not sure if it is a trilogy or there will be more books and that kind of annoys me, so if you have any idea please tell me.

There was something really cool about the characters in this book, i could actually visualize them and make them more “real” than with the previous book. I even decided that though i cannot remember the description of how Bellwether (Glorious Leader)looks if it got an adaptation i want David Castro to play him. All those Spanish words Glorious Leader said and such, made me feel right at home.

One of my biggest problems with the series is that it appears to have no fandom (?), or at least i didn’t find people that talk much about it apart from the reviews and i really need someone to talk about these books ASAP.

Seriously, there was so much going in the last few chapters, after finishing the book last week i was left with a hollowness in my heart that i still feel whenever think about it.

So, do i recommend the book? Did you read the previous one? Did you enjoy it? Do you enjoy Scott Westerfeld writing style? … those are the things you need to think about before reading these books. Honestly, there’s something that keeps bringing me back to them, but the pace is pretty slow (at least for me) so i recommend it to you if you enjoyed the previous book and/or have a little patience with the pace and you can wait until it gets really good.

Anyway, that’s all for now!

‘Til next time  😉

firma

Wrapping Up 2016

Hi, i would like to start this post remembering my step-granddad who passed away a month ago. I have to admit i didn’t know him extremely well, but his demise made me put things on proportion because one day he was feeling a little under the weather and a month and a half later he was just gone.

RIP Cholo.

Now, i do know all the stuff i’m going to talk about doesn’t really seem to go with what i just said, but it is how i felt this year and until that very moment.

2016 is over, and thank god for that, because it was a very horrible year all over the place and every thought i have is about wrapping up this lame excuse of a year so i can finally get over with it for good. Sure, there were really great things, or at least i hope others enjoyed their year. In my case, this 2016 was pretty much chaos.

The Good

I traveled twice to Greece and though the cruise wasn’t what i did expect i enjoyed it pretty much. I traveled with my family and being in the open sea was one of the most amazing things that i’ve seen.

I finally got a new job. This time it’s a good one, a keeper and i hope i get to stay there until retirement, or until the light goes out, whichever comes first.

I read more than i expected, counting the fact that i was in a great slump, why am i saying i was? i’m still in it. But i managed to read some books anyway.

I’m doing my best to stop bitting my nails. It worked for a while, now it’s getting really difficult again.

I got help, i was very down lately (the past few months) but now i’m on treatment and i hope it will get much better soon. My doctor says i’m already doing great. She might be a little more right that i think.

I got to watch Rogue One the day it premiered where i live.

The Bad

Last year i made a list with a lot of resolutions, by the time i did that i didn’t realize i was just putting a lot of pressure on myself. I’m a very messy person, and putting on myself goals or rules that are strict and won’t let me breath is a very bad idea. Sure, it worked for a while, until i crashed under the pressure i was feeling in my life and couldn’t do anything anymore.

So, i crashed really bad, and thou i thought i was pulling myself out of the deep waters i was in it was just taking a breath out of them before sinking again, each time deeper. That’s basically the reason why i didn’t write much lately, i had to take care of my health before i could do anything.

The Ugly

To add to all the problems i was already having, my sister got sick and it took a lot of time to discover what was the illness. All my family and I were really worried because the symptoms were similar to cancer. Luckily, it is not. Apparently, she has an ulcer, but it’s treatable and that’s the important thing. Another one sick is my dog, who has similar symptoms to what my sister has.

Now, i knew last year was too great of a year and it would be a difficult one to surpass but i wasn’t expecting so many problems at home. Like, all three of us (i live with my sister) were having some problem at the same time, and having to take care of two sick persons while having a depressive episode is exhausting.

Look, i’m not saying there weren’t good moments, i do realize my life is pretty easy compared to other s’s and i’m truly thankful for all i had and have this year. The thing i’m trying to say really is i hope 2017 will get a little easier not only for me but for everyone.

I guess i won’t keep complaining.

I’ll just keep looking forward, hoping next year a little less intense than this one, and with great books as company.